Thank you so much for the roller coaster ride.

The year started with so many tears, lots of happiness in the mid, and end with tears again since my uncle passed away. Is he? Because it feels like he is still here. He just stays in another city like he used to...

But, however it is,

Thank you for everything that happened.

If 2013 was my favorite year for all the time, it is swapped away with 2020.

Never feel very much blessed to an experience like 2020.

I learned a lot of lessons and feel very thankful for saying goodbye to someone I once spent time with, the 2020 made me realized that I'm very busy making another plant thrive until I forget mine.

2020 made me realized that everything that my parents said until tiny little pieces is true.

2020 made me realized that my smile and happiness are very transparent to my parents and they can tell that I'm very much happier.

2020 made me realized how I should bloom and the year gave me a chance.

2020 made me really realized how Outliers is very true and I'm very thankful for having very supportive parents.

2020 made me realized to expand my wings to meet amazing people.

2020 made me realized that it's not New York that never sleeps, but the sky.

Goodbye, 2020

Hello 2021 ❤️

Being in ophthalmology rotation made me realized a few things,

that Flying Dutchman had amblyopia

and Eden wrote a song about glaucoma. 

Hahaha.

January, 2021

It turns out

that yesterday

wasn't the same

with six months ago

It's growing

with and without

I realized it

Fully change

everything 

that I once had

Not be able to meet a lot of things

to be able to meet a thing

My mom said

talk to the sky

until it breaks.

January, 2021

As i saw the requirements change

i reconstructed my plans

I have mixed feelings about this

last night i saw the place 

that i might spend my months-or-even-years

how i live, how i spend the time

suddenly crossed my mind

2 years is still a long run my brother said

but dear, 2018 is like slight blink of an eye

2 years later i will feel i wrote this thing yesterday

I have mixed feelings about this

but one thing that i'm sure of

however it is

i don't want to be alone in that place

December, 2020

Trying to do the thing I love when my body at my lowest.

Hence I realized there's a difference between what I want to do and I love to do.

And today, I feel a bit well after doing it.

Sometimes it's okay,

wasting some hours to lighten up another day.

December, 2020

at 5:54

didn’t know that it would be this different

so crowded

every vehicle has their own way towards

looking right

and see a beautiful sight

what a sunset

with a mindset

December, 2020

Indonesia: beli => lihat kondisi => bagus => dipakai

Toh, kalau ga bagus gamungkin dikembalikan ke penjual, karna sudah terlanjur beli banyak.

Desember, 2020