Future

07.03

As i saw the requirements change
i reconstructed my plans

I have mixed feelings about this
last night i saw the place 
that i might spend my months-or-even-years
how i live, how i spend the time
suddenly crossed my mind

2 years is still a long run my brother said
but dear, 2018 is like slight blink of an eye
2 years later i will feel i wrote this thing yesterday

I have mixed feelings about this
but one thing that i'm sure of
however it is
i don't want to be alone in that place



December, 2020

Did

06.03

Trying to do the thing I love when my body at my lowest.
Hence I realized there's a difference between what I want to do and I love to do.
And today, I feel a bit well after doing it.
Sometimes it's okay,
wasting some hours to lighten up another day.



December, 2020

5:54

05.21

Crossing the same way

at 5:54
didn’t know that it would be this different
so crowded
every vehicle has their own way towards
looking right
and see a beautiful sight
what a sunset
with a mindset


December, 2020

Membeli

05.07

Logika: lihat kondisi => bagus => beli => dipakai


Indonesia: beli => lihat kondisi => bagus => dipakai

Toh, kalau ga bagus gamungkin dikembalikan ke penjual, karna sudah terlanjur beli banyak.


Desember, 2020

A year

02.37

Its been a year

since that news comes 
it was like a thunderstorm
that turn her
from refuse it into want it so bad

Its been a year
since she gets to deal with those things
and realizing
who will be there with her and not

Its been a year
and 
there are more years to come

Keep doing everything while you can
there is no 'you only live once'
but there is an afterlife
where it will be based
on how you lived for today



November, 2020

Universe

22.37

Kita gak pernah tau usaha mana yang akan membuahkan hasil, maka berikhtiar lah sebanyak-banyaknya. Coba yang bisa dicoba, berusaha semaksimal mungkin, hingga pada saatnya kabar baik itu akan datang.


Ikhtiar.
Ikhtiar.
Tawakal.

Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Melihat usaha hamba-hambanya. 



November, 2020

Wow

11.09

Its so amazing

how people know 
that the case is still increasing
but act like everything is still normal

Not wearing a mask in a special occasion
like the virus won’t enter the ceremony
thinking wearing a face shield
will be enough

Not wearing anything in a reunion
like the virus won’t be exist in the friend
having a formula
bestfriend = negative

I want to protect my parents, i said
I want to protect humanity, my little brother said
Imagine how cruel, being positive and transferred it to many people
You don’t need to be egoist to be an egoist

Sincerely,
from the WHO declares pandemic until today,
having a protection at the maximum level.


October, 2020